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You can't figure me out, I can't figure me out
So just give it up already.
08 February 2010 @ 09:00 pm
I GOT INTO JAZZ CLUB!
Life.is.good.
Life.is.good.
Current Mood: jubilant
jubilantCurrent Music: Summertime - Ella Fitzgerald
16 November 2009 @ 11:01 pm
Because it's been so long since I've posted,
because I'm bored ,
because I'll be leaving for New York in just a week (AHHHH OMG YAY.)
and because I've just graduated and have nothing else to do,
I bring.... a quiz! Stolen from Lee's blog.
1.Many friends or one close friend?
Many friends. I've always been quite superficial like that.
2.Given a chance, would you leave (now)?
Yes, of course!
3.Sunsets or Sunrises
Sunsets. Perfect endings on even the worst days. :)
4. Give me 10 of your favourite songs~~~~
OMG, It's so hard to choose! I've got so many favourites. But, in no particular order -
1. Hey Jude - The beatles
2. The man who can't be moved - The script
3. My heart will go on - Celine Dion
4. Patience - Take that
5. Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
6. City of blinding lights - U2
7. Save tonight - Eagle-eye Cherry
8. Dreams - The cranberries
9. How to save a life - The fray
10. White Horse - Taylor Swift
5.CUP NOODLES OR MAC N CHEESE?
MAC N CHEESE :D
Damn, it feels great to be back.
Current Mood: 
mellow
mellowCurrent Music: Chasing Pavements - Adele
18 September 2009 @ 08:23 pm
YAY YAY YAY THEY'RE OVER.
So on thursday, after the chem exam(which ended at 9.30 yay) the 7 of us headed down to Cathay Cineleisure, where we did crazyyyyyyyy things, like ... OK SO MAYBE THIS BIT HAD BETTER REMAIN A SECRET. :D Pics are on facebook though! Anyway, we watched I love you beth cooper, which really sucked, but it's fun to watch a trashy movie with a bunch of people you love because you know there'll always be someone who'll shout out in the middle of the movie that EWWW THAT GUY'S SO UGLY NO WAY IS HE GOING TO GET LAID, ESPECIALLY WITH THE HEAD CHEERLEADER.
But, strangely, I don't feel that sense of exhilaration that I'm supposed to. Maybe it's a delayed reaction thing. Perhaps it just hasn't sunk in yet. Obviously, I'm glad they're over and that I no longer have to worry over whether or not I survive the week, survive exams and so on. No more stressing and freaking out because I can't seem to figure out that math problem, or worries over whether or not my history essay will make the cut. Non, nada, Nein.
Except, everytime I do something like sit in the library reading for 6 hours straight, spend a whole day aimlessly wandering around orchard with friends just camwhoring, and initiating meetings with people during the days to come, I get this nagging feeling at the back of my head; As though what I'm doing is wrong, and I actually ought to be studying for the Hindi O's or Math test coming up in a forthnight. Yet, I know in my head that I deserve this break, so HECK, I'm going to take it.
Now that I've got ample free time on my hands, I shall keep that occupied by doing all the things I love, and living life to the fullest! Because this year's the only chance I get before JC and the A levels(gulp) set in. I want to post a to-do list ( in fact, I've already kinda made one) , but I think it's really more fun if I don't follow it and just make plans as I go along. After all, there isn't such a thing as reading too much, watching too (many movies & shows) or going out!
Current Mood: excited
excited16 September 2009 @ 02:04 pm
Right now I'm floundering about, and not doing Chem like I'm supposed to be doing.
Also, because I have no life, I shall post COOL ( yes, REALLY! ) CHEM JOKES, HAHAHA.
Also, because I have no life, I shall post COOL ( yes, REALLY! ) CHEM JOKES, HAHAHA.
A small piece of ice which lived in a test tube fell in love with a Bunsen burner. "Bunsen! my flame! I melt whenever I see you" said the ice. The Bunsen burner replied :"It's just a phase you're going through".
A sign outside the chemistry hotel reads "Great Day Rates, Even Better NO3-'s
Two molecules bump into each other while walking down the street.
1st molecule: "I'm sorry. Are you okay?"
2nd molecule: "No! I lost an electron!"
1st molecule: "Are you sure?"
2nd molecule: "Yes... I'm positive."
Q: What's the most important lesson in chemistry?
A: Never lick the spoon.
BUT OHHHHHHHH YAYYYYY I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW, IT IS THE LAST DAY OF EXAMS, EVER. HOW COOL IS THAT
I have a whole list of things to do, places to go, dreams to fulfill and such.
On another note, bio was crap, Physics normal-ish, History hard to tell and Math was actually not that bad.
I'm just glad they're all over, anyhow.
And now, for the final leap.
Current Mood: excited
excited10 September 2009 @ 01:26 am
Ok for some strange reason I feel all weird. confused. Muddled.
Strange not because this is unusual, but because the root cause is not the fact that my EYAs are in 5 days and I still have loads to study.
It adds on to it, though.
Somehow, I've always felt that everything I've been doing so far in my life has been centered around other people - I rarely do things for myself, by myself.
It's always been about what person A is doing and what I can do to ensure person A and B get along and whether everyone's happy, blah blah blah.
So now that I've finally began to stand up for myself or in Miao's words,"grown a backbone" , I feel...odd.
Out of my element.
But in a good way. It makes me feel independent, makes me feel more assertive and ambitious, as though I could do anything I wanted to, if i'd only set my mind to it. Everytime I make a decision these days, whether for myself or for others, whether big or small, I get that glowing sense of accomplishment, that feeling of pride associated with knowing you've made the right choice and you're going to stick by it, no matter what.
That's how I've been trying to live the past few months. Making decisions without having a safety net or back-up plan, taking risks and making things happen instead of watching or worse, wondering what happened.
Just that... these past few days have also brought up several questions regarding the future; What I'm going to do when I grow up, how i'm going to do that, what college I want to attend and so on.
I'd always thought I'd become a doctor, a gynaecologist or pediatrician and go on to serve patients in some poor village in India.
But now I don't know why, I've suddenly lost my purpose in life - it's like I can't decide, can't make up my mind - heck, I don't even know what I want anymore.
All I know is the type of person - who I want to be when I grow up. And the things I'd like to do for the world
Other than that, I'm basically just as clueless as the next person.
But first, regarding the whole priorities thing, I've come to understand that no one's going to make sure that you get what you deserve in life. You, and only you, have to ensure that all the pieces are in place to gain that recognition and reputation that's so important to universities everywhere.
Because everybody else is too focused on making sure they get what they want. That they get the best awards, trophies and scholarships. And the only way to achieve what you want as well is to try and beat them for it. And beat them damn well too.
Cliche as it sounds, God does help those who help themselves.
Hence, from now on, if I'm upset or angry about something you've just said, I'm going to let you know right then and there. I've finally realised it's no good to keep quiet just to end the argument because yeah, it might end the argument then, but eventually those negative feelings will resurface later on, and often at the wrong time too.
I'm going to live my life, my way now. And nobody's going to stop me from doing so.
Nothing shall hold me back.
Sorry, but that's just the kind of competitive society I've had to face for the past 4 years.
It's just like evolution. Natural Selection. Survival of the fittest and extinction of the weak.
To be as fit as fit can be - and even fitter than that - is my next goal.
On another note, I think the late night/mid morning does something to me, I find myself unable to hold back all these latent feelings. Haha, it's as though their optimum time is at 2 in the morning. No one can say I didn't study physics now, I've even started using thermodynamic terms in my blogposts.
Not that I regret posting any of this. Though I do feel a tad annoyed about the excessive use of 'I's and 'me's. God, it makes me sound so self-obsessed. Well, heck, back to bio now.
Current Mood: 
contemplative
contemplative07 September 2009 @ 10:12 pm
Well, today was a long longggggggg day. Had History(which I'm going to miss terribly) and Physics in the morning. Lunch at Carl's Junior with the gang and Math tuition afterwards. Bleagh slacked off for 2 hours earlier so it looks like another all-nighter for me, whee waah whoo.
But first, a meme!
( Stole it from Janne, it's a harry potter one =) )
:D
Current Mood: 
good
good07 September 2009 @ 01:59 am
I hate the internet, everytime I go online it's like some great big magnet, enticing me into the world of fun things and such. I never do anything productive once I go on it, except maybe check my email but even then, most of it is rubbish, full of facebook and fanfiction junk. Ugh I hate this feeling of lacking control, I hate that most if not all our coursework's on moodle which is on the bloody world wide web which means I have to go online which means I waste like half a day just web surfing. Im so much more productive when the comp's not on. Like before now, where i was happily doing PHYSICS at this hour and then i realise I have to check the answers online and WHAM BHAM BOOM here I am. I hate that EYAs are in a week, that I haven't finished studying for bio and physics and hist yet, and that pretty much my whole life depends on my end of year GPA. Oh I just HATE THIS WHOLE SYSTEM OF MERITOCRATIC LEARNING. Why can't we just not have exams and just be graded on class participation or something.
And this is what sitting alone in your room at 2 am in the morning with no one to talk to because you've disconnected MSN for the past 3 months feels like.
Current Mood: 
annoyed
annoyed07 September 2009 @ 01:20 am
05 September 2009 @ 07:03 pm
Monday
07:55 – 10:20 Core Lessons
GET OUT OF SCHOOL TIME :D
12:55 – 14:55 GP Prep D336
14:55 – 16:55 Pharmaceutical Chemistry D449 & Lab1
Tuesday
07:55 – 10:20 Core Lessons
RECESS :D
10:55 – 12:55 Pax-Americana D333
LUNCH :D
13:25 – 16:25 GP prep S336
Wedneday
07:55 – 10:20 Core Lessons
AND THAT’S IT!
Thursday
07:55 – 10:20 Core Lessons
RECESS :D
10:55 – 12:55 Pax-Americana D333
LUNCH :D
13:25 – 16:25 Pharmaceutical Chemistry D449 & Lab1
Friday
07:55 – 10:20 Core Lessons
AND THAT’S IT!
Sidenote: I LOVE MY NEW PENGUIN EMOTICON.
Current Mood: chipper
chipper05 September 2009 @ 05:38 pm
I LOVE LIVEJOURNAL I LOVE LIVEJOURNAL I LOVE LIVEJOURNAL.
Just felt like saying that.
Just felt like saying that.
Current Mood: 
Odd
OddCurrent Music: Save tonight - Eagle-eye cherry
31 August 2009 @ 03:59 pm
Stop reading fanfic and sleeping all the time and
GIT YOUR GODDAMNED FANNY DOWN TO DOING SOME REAL WORK.
Current Mood: 
lazy
lazy30 August 2009 @ 05:38 pm
You'll go straight to the top.
If you set out to reach the top of the class, the top of the charts, or the top of Mt. Everest, there's no doubt in your mind that you're going to make it. You're full of cheery greetings, sky-high dreams, and the kind of energy that's impossible to hold down for long. If you have to make copies or fetch soy lattes for a few months of your life to get where you want to go, you'll do it with a smile on your face -- a real one. You're so intense about your dreams that people WANT to help you out -- otherwise, they better get out of the way, because you are moving directly toward your goal. You don't have a back-up plan, because that would mean admitting that Plan A (your ultimate dream) might not happen, and you'd never do that... especially not to yourself.
People like the way you cure their boredom.
You're practically bursting with entertaining plans (for today, tomorrow, and ten years down the line), and you have a knack for convincing other people to get involved. You know the power of a well-timed dare, and you take pride in convincing even your most uptight friends to let loose every once in a while. Your friends love that no day with you is like any other -- except that they're all packed with unforgettable moments.
Results
You are 3:15 p.m.
You are the moment when the last bell rings and school lets out for the day. You are resistant to schedules and obligations, so you love feeling like you're in control of your life again. You are the very moment when the second hand hits the 12, and the halls fill with noise and motion. Even if your after-school time is packed with activities, lessons, or a job, somehow, you just feel freer in the late afternoon than you do earlier in the day. Maybe it's all that blue sky and afternoon sunshine? Nah -- even on rainy days, 3:15 is always a beautiful time.
Current Mood: relaxed
relaxed27 August 2009 @ 10:24 pm
TODAY I HAD MY LAST EVER PHYSICS LESSON.
*REJOICES*
Well, it also was my last ever chem and history lesson, but since I am going to do them as options, all is fine and dandy.
Will miss the teachers though, they really are brilliant.
QOTD.
Ee Iyn: So, let's say we want to answer how the events in the war shaped the world into.....
Mr Law: A sphere?
Ms Jazilah: *walks in, sees half of the chairs empty* WHY IS EVERYONE IN THE TOILET, IS THERE SOME KIND OF SHOW GOING ON?!
Ms Siow: Lightbub!
Ah, good times indeedy.
*REJOICES*
Well, it also was my last ever chem and history lesson, but since I am going to do them as options, all is fine and dandy.
Will miss the teachers though, they really are brilliant.
QOTD.
Ee Iyn: So, let's say we want to answer how the events in the war shaped the world into.....
Mr Law: A sphere?
Ms Jazilah: *walks in, sees half of the chairs empty* WHY IS EVERYONE IN THE TOILET, IS THERE SOME KIND OF SHOW GOING ON?!
Ms Siow: Lightbub!
Ah, good times indeedy.
Current Mood: happy
happy20 August 2009 @ 10:16 pm
I need to lose weight.
I measured myself the other day and I roughly have the vital stats of a baby elephant, seriously.
Coming to think of it, I even look like one, with maybe just a slightly smaller nose.
I need to find an ugly and fat home to go to now, ciao.
I measured myself the other day and I roughly have the vital stats of a baby elephant, seriously.
Coming to think of it, I even look like one, with maybe just a slightly smaller nose.
I need to find an ugly and fat home to go to now, ciao.
Current Mood: cranky
cranky16 August 2009 @ 05:54 pm
SS PT is about halfway done, I have yet to do editing and study for chem and phys spa and Oh my god I think it's going to be an all-nighter tonight so I'd better leave this place now and get started. also, how are people able to finish their's in 3 hours?! I've been at it since 10 and I have yet to properly write in my bloody statistics.
merde merde merde merde merde
/edit/ It's over. Finish. Finito und ende. The last ever PT of my life.
merde merde merde merde merde
/edit/ It's over. Finish. Finito und ende. The last ever PT of my life.
Current Mood: 
stressed
stressed12 August 2009 @ 08:51 pm
“Achieving success is just like being pregnant. Everyone congratulates you on the outcome but no one knows how many times you got fucked.”
Got this off Lin's blog. It is very crude, yes, but essentially, makes a hell of a lot of sense.
Current Mood: listless
listless12 August 2009 @ 08:49 pm
I love literature.
I've always loved it actually - ever since I could read, in fact.
I was always the lit girl back in primary school - the one who used to read all the classics, devour the library books and could always be counted on having some book or the other with her.
I'm still like that now; a day doesn't pass by without people asking me how my lit exam went.
Even people who've known me for years, are my friends, and sit right beside me.
They always enquire as to what exactly am I doing in the physics class, because don't I have a lit lesson to attend?
Frankly, most of the time I ask myself the same question.
If I could go back in time, like we all wished we could, I would never have chosen to take up triple science.
I guess I was just plain deluded back then, convinced that I was doing the 'right thing' ( i.e. listening to the parentals )
Myopic though I was, I really did take the subjects that I liked. You see, my problem wasn't that I hated everything and couldn't choose; I liked everything and so I couldn't choose. I knew I liked lit. I just wasn't sure if I could do lit.
Except now that I've dropped the subject for good, I can't stop putting myself in 'what if' scenarios.
I miss every aspect of it; the alliteration, analysing, themes, good fiction, hours spent pondering over the meaning behind a single phrase.
But most of all, I miss having one good class to look forward to every week.
Oh sure, I like History and Chemistry too - The teaching's good, the topics are interesting, and I actually enjoy doing the homework.
Just that... none of them offer the same kind of engaging conversation that can be developed in a good literature class. With shakespeare, anything and everything goes because ultimately, it's all about the person who can back up her perceptions with the most conviction and evidence. Atleast, that's how I see the subject.
It's funny how decisions made so long ago can come and hit you right back later on, no?
Which is why I'm questioning myself and taking my time to see if the subjects I've thought about doing next year are really what I want to do.
Because no way am I going to go through all this again.
"Regret for the the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."
I've always loved it actually - ever since I could read, in fact.
I was always the lit girl back in primary school - the one who used to read all the classics, devour the library books and could always be counted on having some book or the other with her.
I'm still like that now; a day doesn't pass by without people asking me how my lit exam went.
Even people who've known me for years, are my friends, and sit right beside me.
They always enquire as to what exactly am I doing in the physics class, because don't I have a lit lesson to attend?
Frankly, most of the time I ask myself the same question.
If I could go back in time, like we all wished we could, I would never have chosen to take up triple science.
I guess I was just plain deluded back then, convinced that I was doing the 'right thing' ( i.e. listening to the parentals )
Myopic though I was, I really did take the subjects that I liked. You see, my problem wasn't that I hated everything and couldn't choose; I liked everything and so I couldn't choose. I knew I liked lit. I just wasn't sure if I could do lit.
Except now that I've dropped the subject for good, I can't stop putting myself in 'what if' scenarios.
I miss every aspect of it; the alliteration, analysing, themes, good fiction, hours spent pondering over the meaning behind a single phrase.
But most of all, I miss having one good class to look forward to every week.
Oh sure, I like History and Chemistry too - The teaching's good, the topics are interesting, and I actually enjoy doing the homework.
Just that... none of them offer the same kind of engaging conversation that can be developed in a good literature class. With shakespeare, anything and everything goes because ultimately, it's all about the person who can back up her perceptions with the most conviction and evidence. Atleast, that's how I see the subject.
It's funny how decisions made so long ago can come and hit you right back later on, no?
Which is why I'm questioning myself and taking my time to see if the subjects I've thought about doing next year are really what I want to do.
Because no way am I going to go through all this again.
"Regret for the the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."
Current Mood: pensive
pensive19 July 2009 @ 12:18 pm
Harry potter and the half blood prince sucked.
Don't get me wrong - I'm a fan, I've read the books a million times and I'm a veteran of harry potter fanfic/spells/lingo i.e. I'm snowed in all things J.K Rowling. I even liked some of the movies, the first 4 to be precise, and number 5 wasn't too bad either, other than the obvious and growing uglyness of daniel radcliffe. ( Don't hit me! )
But honestly, this one was BAD. Bad enough to make me capitilise the word. It was one of my most favourite books, it had the funniest quotes and scenes; it was where relationships and soulmates and future destinies were declared and old ones severed. So, naturally the movie should have been about the same standard - they can't go wrong adapting a great book almost page by page, can they?
Boy was I wrong. The trailer seemed so fantastical, so exciting and enchanting I was just giddy entering the theatre. ( We went in 20 minutes late though, thanks to Sarah and Zanthe losing their way ) Except, I really shouldn't have. The popcorn was way more interesting than franky boy(dan rad) and his sidekicks.
However, since I strive to be open-minded and reach self actualisation, I will attempt at a balanced review of the things I hated and the things I loved, with hate first because ending on a good note is always more fun.
Note: SPOILERS AHOY!
(Ok no idea why I've just had a brief conversion to piratism, maybe I've been possesed by Captain Jack Sparrow.)
( MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD. You have been warned. )
So that's all I have to say regarding HP6. On another note, I just watched Prisoner of Azkaban on the telly and it was fantabulous! Dan actually looks decent in this one, his eyes are so GORGEOUS. ( too bad they're blue, and not green as he's supposed to have. But still. ) It's been a while since I've watched that one, so I guess I feel this way now. Maybe I'll even like HP6 after rewatching it several times, after all. Then again, maybe not. Still, I can't wait to watch it with fu on Mon! At the very least, the popcorn will be good.
P.s. This was probably my longest post ever.I was going to cut it, but ellejay is screwing up so I couldn't, sorry!
Current Mood: accomplished
accomplishedCurrent Music: Lenka - The show
03 July 2009 @ 02:03 pm
Girls
are like
apples on trees.
The best ones are
at the top of the tree.The
boys dont want to reach
for the good ones because they
are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't quite as good,
but easy. So the apples at the top think
something is wrong with them, when in
reality, they're amazing. They just
have to wait for the right boy to
come along, the one who's
brave enough to
climb all
the way
to the top
of the tree
I don't, of course.
Current Mood: 
sick
sick